A Look Back

Summary: I invite you to take at least a quick look at my updated website that includes notable changes, and thus a bit of a new look. Plus, below, is a very brief look back of my blog posts.

Body: Y’all may have noticed that I sent out some accidental posts/reposts. I apologize for those, but I was making changes to my blog and posts and am still learning this blog hosting app. It can be complicated depending on what I’m trying to do.

As part of the process, I necessarily needed to go back and edit each and every post to account for changes/errors in my signature blocks. This also required that I read each post at least a bit to get an idea of what I was trying to say, as I use different signature blocks depending on the content of the post.

The effect of making these changes and reviewing these posts had a profound effect on me. I’m embarrassed to tell you this, but I cried most of the way through it. At times it was difficult working through the tears. Once again, even as I write this post, I find myself in tears again. Why? I don’t know. Perhaps you can offer me clues, as I appreciate dialogue. It does feel like a bit of release, while at the same time being a bit of testimony to the pain I still feel. Maybe I always will. I don’t know.

Regardless, that’s not why I’m writing this post. I’m writing this post to provide a quick look back at the ups and downs of my journey. I recognize that most everyone has read very few of my posts. That’s okay. It’s clear that there just isn’t interest in this topic. Who wants to hear and much less ‘talk’ about such an ugly, disgusting subject? It’s challenging to not feel dirty as a result. Perhaps it’s better swept under the carpet, better to not ring that bell, as some survivors question. I get it. I really do. If there’s nothing else I get, I get this one.

If you haven’t been following my blog, reading my posts I mean, then the titles won’t mean much to you. However, for me, since I obviously have intimate awareness of what’s in the posts, comments, and private messages, I think just the titles send a coherent message of sorts. The posts could almost be copied and pasted into a book with each post being a chapter. This really wouldn’t make any sense, because out of respect for your time, I try to keep each post short. Plus, I’m not finished with my journey; I don’t know where it’s going. It scares me at times. But, I’m pretty sure, at this point, I’m not accomplishing any of my stated goals when I started this blog; save for one: it’s helping me to put words to my experiences, and it is benefiting me, even if in small ways. I have no choice but to settle for that. That’s okay.

Having said that, I’ve gotten a few comments/private messages that are as good as gold to me. I’m very grateful for those who’ve taken the time to either comment, or send me a personal message.

Let’s get on with it already. Below is a list of the posts, in the order they were published:

1The Journey Begins
2Why this blog?
3New website!
4“Ungodly Abuse”
5Nuts and Bolts
6Seriously?
7Alternative
8The Forgotten
9Encouragement
10Peace
11Here’s the Problem
12Just Let it Go
13Who? Who? Who Let The Dogs Out?
14Celebrate Recovery!
15Get Over It!
16No More Pain
17“The Effects of Sexual Abuse Never Go Away”
18Humpty Dumpty
19Identity Crisis!
20What Type of People Get Abused?
21The Winding Road
22Backup!
23The Episcopal Diocese of New York Suspends Statute of Limitations for Clergy Sexual Misconduct Allegations  for Three Years
24New York state set to extend statute of limitations on child sex abuse
25Moments of Joy
26The Sound of Music
27A little humor
28I’m Back!
29Just Do It Already!
30Support – Important Read
31More Humor
32the Most Amazing Woman
33Forgiveness
34Therapy? Ugh.
35Communication Barriers
36Exciting News
37An Amazing Breakthrough
38Making Positive out of Trauma
39The Unknown: I need to be Heard
40Question for You
Titles/Order of my blog “Journey from Abused to Joy” as of Jun 16, 2021

Thanks for reading.

Wishing you much love and peace,

Matt

“Give the world the best you have and it may never be enough. Give your best anyway. For you see, in the end, it is between you and God. It was never between you and them anyway.” ― Mother Teresa

Pope Francis, I appeal you to meet the needs of survivors of clergy sexual abuse by making reparations commensurate with the damage, emotional or otherwise, caused to survivors. I have ideas on how to do this. If you can’t do this, then I respectfully ask, on behalf of the Church, you to stop receiving communion until such time that the Church does. Because until the Church does, it will not be in communion with the saints. Sincere contrition is meaningless without reparations in kind. Demonstrate to the world that the Catholic Church is catholic; that is, the Church Jesus established with Peter as the rock, the first pope; that the Church practices what it preaches.

Ps: Have words of encouragement or a testimony to share? Does/has this blog helped you in some way? Know of additional, valuable resources? Suggestions for topics? Post a comment or you can also send me a private message by using the “Contact” page on my website or message me on FB.

Consider sharing this blog with others. Victim/survivors of abuses, more often than not, carry this burden silently alone, not knowing how to deal with it or where to turn, but need hope. Loved ones and caregivers also need support. We never know who is or wants to reach out for help. This blog might be of help to caregivers and loved ones of abuse. Silence is deadly and if together we are able to help or save just one life, isn’t that worth it?

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Sig – Pope – after signature

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TESTIMONIALS:

An excerpt from the blog The Effects of Sexual Abuse Never Go Away” – “ A child is likely to be left with strong feelings of anger, fear, shame, hurt and disappointment”. That’s some of the reasons why 45 years later I’ve never told my story. Yes, it’s hidden and yes it affects me to … Continue reading Anonymous

Anonymous

Thank you for posting…Sharing intimate details is scary. Thank you for being so brave and for reaching out to others through this blog. I know much of your heart in this blog. Your openness and honesty is quiet beautiful. Thank you for sharing.

UK

‘You make the reality of what you and other victims have suffered so very clear, but we all need to know that it happened. People want to help, we want to speak up and reassure, but sometimes, we just don’t know how. We are learning, hopefully. God bless you and your journey to complete peace.’

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